The Art of Thriving in Stillness




For the first time in so long—maybe ever—I feel happy and peaceful in my heart. I am so grateful for this time, to feel restored, seeking rest and true healing. I find that healing occurs in stillness.  Since 2007, life has been marked by survival: verbal, financial, and emotional abuse, the struggle to hold a marriage together, the pain of divorce and custody battles, heartbreak, worry, and isolation. I carried so much weight—trying to protect my sons, hold the pieces together, and still stand tall.

Through every season—abandonment, family distance, strained friendships, and loss—I learned what peace is not. I learned that love without respect is not love or friendship, that strength without support becomes exhaustion, and that boundaries are acts of self-respect.
Now, there is joy. I’m at peace. My heart feels open again—to love, to friendship, to self-compassion. I’ve repaired relationships that matter, released those that don’t, and forgiven those who hurt me and my family. I feel tenderness for the girl I once was—the one who longed to be seen, heard, and cared for. I see her now. I love her now. And for the first time, she feels safe, seen, worthy, loved and enough.






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